This Is Not How I Want to Think.

Writer does not feel intelligent.

Writer does not read enough.

Writer wishes she could be more intelligent.

Writer does not feel like making people feel sorry for her.

Miranda July

I think Miranda July's "stories" can be characterized as sort of character sketches. Each story develops a character that I wish I could think like. They all have wild imaginations and an ignorant selfishness that inhibits them from feeling silly for being themselves. I know that as I read I started to highlight the thoughts of the characters that I know I have had, but never really wanted anyone to know I had.

There are so many social norms that we as "civilized people" feel we need to follow. I know sometimes I think to myself, "This is bullshit. Shouldn't I act how I want to act?" If I'm not hurting anyone with the way I am acting then it should be fair game. The next time I feel compelled to do something that others might think is odd, fuck it. I'm doing it. And if I were to have a challenge at the end of every post, which I am thinking of doing from now on, it would be as follows:

THE NEXT TIME YOU ARE STRANGELY COMPELLED TO DO SOMETHING, DO IT.

Through The Eyes of the WILD Child

For my project I would like to learn more about children with behavioral issues. With my job this summer I feel like it would benefit me to learn to deal with children with in the most efficient and fair way. It want to better my understanding some of the children I work with. Basically, with this project I want to kill two birds with one stone. I really want to do something with this issue because I am really interested in it, and it would benefit me to learn more about it.

Research: I would like to research some of the most common behavioral issues found in adolescents and teens. I have already been searching for some books on the issue.

Writing: I want to write a short story through the eyes of a child with a behavioral issue. I think in doing that I will force myself to think like the children I am working with and therefore gain a better understanding of how to deal with those kids.

Class Connection: I do think of the children that I work with wild in some aspects. Not thinking before hitting, yelling, or doing something irrational is a part of human nature. One has to learn to get along with others. It's a part of human nature to act before thinking.

Any suggestions or critiques?

The Beginning

It was Sunday evening when the TV people showed up. The Traveling Veterans is what they called themselves. They were a group of older men traveling the world, and preaching the costs of war as they went. They were very popular, especially among the 13-16 year old kids who only listened to their gory stories for the sack of gore. In most cases the children in this town weren't allowed to watch TV, So when the TV people came it was heaven for them.

The group of about 11 men in their 70's took turns in front of a microphone in a small town hall. Their audience never exceeded twenty or thirty, but they felt this set up a better mood to tell their life changing stories of when they were forced to do in the war. As the adults listened, they expressed visual signs of remorse for the old men. As the children listened, their mouths were open in awe as if it was the first time they were allowed to use such a strange thing as the imagination.

Some things we don't grow out of.

I thought that once I left high school I wouldn't have to deal with the exclusion and bullying thing. Well as I read and we discussed Swamp Boy I realized that it still happens. I know that people still prey on others not only at my age, but even into "adulthood." I use quotations for the word because I am not sure I really believe in it. I think that we don't ever really grow up. I mean there is a level of "maturity" that some people gain, but I don't always think that since someone is 18 or 21 that makes then an "adult." Adults just have bigger mistakes to make. There a really good movie I've seen, You Me and Everyone We Know: it's about the difference between children and adults (or lack there of). Check out the movie if you haven't seen it.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0415978/trailers-screenplay-E24072-314

Hardy Har HAR

A pirate is wild.

So I think that when I am to the point of not being able to control my emotions, I am truly wild. Now that I think about it I have more wild moments than I am aware of. When I cry I feel wild. Maybe that is the attraction to it. It always feels better to cry. That could be why. Crying is a natural thing to do when we are sad or bothered. We learn this from birth after all. I say this because even though it truly wasn't today was the worst day of my life. I'm a bit over-dramatic. I know.

MONday roomKEY

As i sit wondering. I WONDER wonder. I wander as I wonder. Who said that? Any who, I thought of the phrase "The Wrath of God." I thought about the movie what stood out to me. I started to think of the movie with the monkeys at the end. I thought of how that was wild and why it was wild. THen I thought it would be truly wild if the humans were monkeys and the monkeys were humans. It would be so creepy, but I often see the public as a bunch of monkeys acting WILD with shopping malls and such. Maybe those are the moments that people are truly wild in our modern day world. Shopping Malls at Christmas.